Confessions...

...I yelled at my 5 year old daughter today.  Like REALLY YELLED.  My toddler just stood in amazment and watched.  Luckily my newborn stayed asleep. (That's probably because it is nothing new to her.  She heard it a lot in the womb.)
...I spanked my 5 year old daughter on her fanny today...Not just once.  My hand didn't hurt tho, but her bum did.
...I have not wanted to cook this week.  Our meals have been very un-nutritious, with one fast food night already.

Because of all of this, I have learned a few things.  I made sure to explain to my little girl that I still love her, and not just a little bit...A LOT.  I just wish she would obey.  And, I felt so guilty about not really cooking this week, I did a super yummy crock pot meal for tonight.  Look at me--dinner's already going.  My husband will be so happy!

Success today...

O.K. This might seem like a minor thing to some, but here are 2 big successes for me today.  
#1 -- I actually gave my toddler a good breakfast...and HE ATE IT! Now again this may sound crazy to you, but this is an upgrade for him.  He ate 1/2 a banana and some cheerios in milk. (My oldest doesn't do milk in his cereal, so this is great!)  Usually I hand the kid a pop-tart, or half a piece of toast, so I'm feeling pretty good about myself.
#2 -- I let my kids help me do the dishes today, instead of sitting them in front of the t.v. so I could just do them myself and get it done and over with.  But, today I decided to let them help. And even tho we ended up with water all over the counter, and even some on the floor, it was great.  I actually had fun, and I think my kids did too.
Yay me!  I hope you all find the little success of your day and say --Yay you!

"It's hard to be a mom...isn't it?"

This is the question that my 7 year old asked me this morning.  Let me give you a preface to what brought up this question.  Last night my two boys had fevers, so we sent them to bed on medicine.  My oldest daughter also went to bed with meds because of a cough and constant runny nose.  I knew it would be a rough night. At 2 a.m. my 2 year old woke up crying and was burning hot, so I went to get him medicine again and he gagged  on it, which brought up the recent bottle of milk he drank.  He screamed when I threw him in the tub calling for daddy the whole time.  (Daddy of course, cannot stand the thought of throw-up, so he stayed in bed.)  After rinsing off the toddler, I threw him in bed next to dad so I could deal with the bedding. Rinsed it off...put it in the washing machine...put clean bedding on the crib.  Put the 2 year old back to sleep after finally getting him to take a chewable medicine.  The second I walked back into our bedroom, the newborn wakes up wanting to eat.  After feeding her, I was finally able to lay back down and go to sleep. (Oh, yeah, and while my 2 year old was screaming in the tub, he woke up his 5 year old sister who wanted to see what the hub-ub was all about.  Luckily she went back to bed pretty easily.)  I was awakened again at 6:30 a.m. when that newborn wanted to eat again.  While feeding the little one, the 5 year old came in and got in my bed since, daddy was on his way out the door for work.  I laid back down again still tired, then heard the 2 year old at 7:30 a.m...got him a drink, then laid back down and pushed snooze on the already going off alarm.  I finally sat up when I heard the 7 year old awake.  I asked him to come in so we could check his fever...102.  Lovely. He's not going to school today. So, I'm going back to sleep. Ya right. Everyone started waking up. 7 year old-102 degree fever, 5 year old- runny nose so bad she says a lot of 'b's, 2 year old--crying and back to a 100 degree fever again, newborn--ready to be awake, eat, and please don't put me down!  So, I get breakfast for those who feel good enough to eat, then try to put a load of laundry in.  This is when my 7 year old looks at me and says "It's hard to be a mom...isn't it?"    Yes.  Yes it is.  But, then his next act made it all o.k.  I took the empty hamper downstairs to get the load out of the dryer, to make the switch over.  While I'm carrying the baby and hamper down into the laundry room, my 7 year old grabs his 5 year old sister and says "Come on, let's take this down."  They, together bring the next load down the stairs for me and bring it to the laundry room.  I look at them and he says, "we didn't want you to do ALL the work mom."  How much do I love these kids?  More than they will ever know.  Is it hard being their mom...YES, but it is SOOOOOO worth it.  I wouldn't change today for anything.

'William Tell Overture' Mom

Yet another great MOM song. This hits the nail right on the head!

"To Do List" by Hilary Weeks

I just had to do this. My cousin has this on her blog and I LOVE it! This is honestly what some days feel like. Makes me tired just thinking about it.

What I accomplished today.

I have done 4 loads of laundry.  That's pretty much it.  But, that's 4 loads of clean clothes for my kids, so that I don't have to try and find "clean" pants that I pull out of the dirty hamper, or my daughter won't have to wear "pedal pushers" to school.
I also did my parental duty and dropped off and picked up kids from school.  Count today, as a success. (And it's not even over yet!)

For my benefit...

This blog is really just for my benefit and for my sanity.  I want a place where I can vent, celebrate, and brag about the things I am doing as a mom, wife, and woman.  Then, maybe I'll be so motivated, by knowing that I'll be posting, to do better and BE better.  If others end up looking at it, and commenting, I can also gain motivation from them.  I'm always wanting to be good at things like "Jane" is.  I know...it's not good to compare myself to others, but if it gets my fanny in gear--so be it.